He carries us...

Isaiah 46:4  Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you.  I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.

The older I get the more I realize how much I need the Lord to sustain me.  I simply cannot "do" life on my own, without entrusting my care to my Creator.  And not only my care, but the care of those I love.  The obvious people are my kids and husband.  I cannot be with them every second and even if I could, I still could not protect them from every hurt and harm that might happen.  I am so thankful I can cover them in prayer, as well as feel sure that if something does happen, they will be with our Jesus in Heaven and I will see them again one day.

The person who coined the saying about your kids being "your heart walking around outside your body" really knew what she was talking about if you ask me.  The desire of my heart is to see my boys have lives filled with joy, to know, love, and serve the Lord, to live a long time, and to serve others and make the world a better place.  But there is inherent danger in just being alive, let alone go down some of the paths in life that are options.  Jackson talks about being a firefighter (and simultaneously owning a restaurant) one day.  Lord help this Mama heart if that happens.  I have my doubts about the restaurant, because, what in the world would such a picky eater serve to people?  I would not mind doing some missions work or the boys ending up working in missions.  Yikes though...  potentially not much contact with them, all kinds of things they are not exposed to in the USA, and chaos everywhere in the world.  Wherever their hearts are though and wherever God calls them, I want to support.  I want to be part of the way God sustains them.

There are so many others in my life whom I think and pray and hope the best for.  But I can't be there with them, partly because the military has brought me far away.  It is hard to form deep relationships from far away; it takes much effort to keep them up as well.  And so, while I do my best to let those I love know how much I love them, I have to trust that God will take care of the rest.  He will sustain and carry each one of us who asks Him to.

So thankful for this truth today.