God's Call

I thought I would not be posting much anymore about what I am reading in the Bible.  And maybe I won't.  I am not sure.  But I do know that sometimes it will just speak to me and I am going to write about that if I feel like I want to.  

Right now I am in Isaiah.  I have honestly never gotten through any of the prophetical books.  But I have a renewed desire due to the Bible study I am currently doing with my Monday night girls.  I am so thankful for this group of women that comes together in a desire to know God's Word and grow more Jesus-like because of it.  

So, Isaiah 6: 8 says, "Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'Whom shall I send?  And who will go for us?'  And I said, 'Here am I.  Send me!!' "

I almost missed it.  I almost did not realize this was God calling Isaiah to be a prophet.  I knew God was telling Isaiah to go and tell the people of Judah something, but I did not realize this was God's first time letting Isaiah know that he would be prophesying for the Lord.  Thankful that I ended up in two different Bibles and ended up seeing the little aside that was in one of them.  I have about five Bibles here, but none of them is a study Bible.  I guess that just went on my list.  

Anyhow, this stuck out to me, this call.  What do I want to be when I grow up?  OMGoodness.  I am grown up.  I have three kids, a husband, a house, and a minivan.  I live far away from the people who used to take care of me and now I am taking care of others.  Little people who need me.  I am living the dream I had for my life when I was a little girl (although it is not as easy as I thought it would be, lol).  God is so good!!  

And now I wonder what other calls will He have for my life?  And I wonder what calls will He have for my  boys?  Right now, Jackson wants to be a restauranteur and a fireman.  Max wants to be a firefighter, a policeman, and a daddy.  And I, I just want to be faithful to the God who has given me more than I could have asked or imagined.  I want to love like Jesus and give out His grace and tell the story of His great love, His great sacrifice.  I want to be better than I was yesterday and less afraid of what people think of me.  I want to give into this hurting world in a way that makes a difference for the world, for His Kingdom, and for even just one person.  

And I want to raise my boys up to hear the call God puts on their lives.  I want them to love like Jesus and make their Jesus-love mark on the world in the way that God created them to.  

And so my prayer today is that I can love these little people enough and give them enough grace (the way God gives me) that they will desire to follow the God who sacrificed everything for them.  I pray that they will look at me and see love and grace.  I hope they can see how I love that they are each different, and yet brothers.  I hope they can see that they each have amazing and special gifts from the Lord.  I hope that I can help them grow and use those gifts to serve a great, big God.  I pray that I am strong enough to help them have discipline and make good decisions.  And I pray that they can love me through my own growing and changing as these years go by; that they can give grace to this mama, because Lord knows, I am going to need it!