Monday, June 11, 2012

1 John 5:12 He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.

I think back on my life before Jesus really made sense to me. I always had the faith to believe that He was God, that He came in human form and died on the cross for my sins. I did not understand though, that He died so I could have relationship with God the Father and live this life with the Holy Spirit in me. I did not understand the depth of His love for me; I felt so unworthy of that. And I am. But He gives grace, undeserved favor, to those who believe in His name, who believe and desire His salvation.

There was a time I went to church (when I was looking for Jesus), and I felt His presence so deeply, like He was actually wrapping His arms around me and showing me that if I wanted, we could do this life together. I had to let Him break me down to build me up. And omgoodness! I am sure He thought that was quite a process, stubborn as I am, going back and making the same mistakes and bad decisions over and over again.

But through that sometimes painful, sometimes joyful process God showed me Himself. He showed me His unconditional love through His Son, His Word, and His actual presence in every detail of my life. He showed me that I really can be content in all things, as His Word says. He continually shows me the person I want to be and gives me opportunities to grow into and be that person. I don't always do well with what He gives me to do. In fact, I am sure He sometimes must think, "You really messed that up." Sometimes I have no idea what He is trying to teach me/tell me. But I am sure of His love and His salvation. Because He gave me so much, my desire is to obey what His Word says and live the way Jesus lived. I believe my salvation, my place in heaven, is sure. But I am so grateful for this other knowledge: that I want God my Father to know and see that I am doing my best to live His way because of His love for me. I want Him to know that I have finally come to the place where I believe His way is best. He did not have to, but He chose to prove that to me. I am so thankful for His love. I want to live in that love and give that love.

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