Jesus calling

John 1:49 Nathanael answered him, "Rabbi, you are the Son of God! You are the King of Israel!" 50 Jesus answered him, "Because I said to you, 'I saw you under the fig tree,' do you believe? You will see greater things than these."

When I started this journaling blog, something would stand out to me every time I read my Bible, something I needed to hear, something I wanted to write about, that feeling that the Lord was using His Word to speak into my life. And lately I have not felt this happening. I had been opening to the same old books; good teaching and advice in them no doubt, but I was not seeing anything that popped out to me. And so the other day, I decided to open to the stories of Jesus' teaching, of His great love for people, of His seeing them. And He saw me.

I think I must have felt like Nathanael under that fig tree, sitting here, reading my Bible, doing something normal for my daily life, and Jesus just saw me. And I believed more in Him, if that is possible. You know how when someone "gets" you and then you "feel" their love for you? My Jesus gets me. And I really needed and wanted to feel His love that day. It was His gift to me.

So, not only did I really feel Jesus' love, but I felt Him speaking to me through these verses. First He said, "I saw you," and then He said, "You will see greater things than these." Greater things? He already gave me the gift of seeing me, not to mention all the blessings I look around me and see. But there are greater things?

This idea of greater things spoke right to my heart. Mike and I have been waiting for something. For what feels like a long time now. And waiting. And waiting. And waiting. I know there are others that have been waiting too... Waiting for babies, waiting for spouses, waiting for a job, waiting for life to change. Waiting always feels like it is taking forever. No matter how long you are waiting. Once the decision has been made to go for something, or make a change, then that change can never get here fast enough.

But here, in my waiting, Jesus told me He has greater things. I am not really sure what greater might actually be. Maybe it is not what I want at all. But in His plans, there is greater. If more of Him is greater, then I am glad. I got more of Him today and I felt His love. That alone is greater to me and I am so grateful to have experienced that.