This is a post I never moved from my email, written just after the first of the year.

Matthew 25:46 "These people will go off to be punished forever, but the good people will go off to live forever." (NCV)

So, I don't actually have anything to say about this verse directly. It got me to thinking though, about how we often don't want to believe what the Bible is saying to us. We want to mold God into what we want Him to be. We want to believe that we don't need a Savior, that we are inherently good. We want to believe that hell does not exist...

I am, of course, juggling many balls. I am trying to finish up reading a controversial book, which then took me to other places to get answers to the questions I had after reading it. Then, that leads me to other places and I am on the internet for hours, browsing sites that I found interesting, convicting, or that I feel like I am learning something from. Today, I just got a reminder that started with a question: will I humbly believe in God's Word, even when I do not fully understand it every bit of it? Well, I suppose I have trouble with the idea of believing what I do not fully understand... However, God does state, through Jesus and the other inspired writers of the Word, that He is mysterious and that we will never fully know Him in this lifetime, but that He is holy, worthy of praise and trust. And with that, for me, comes comfort. I believe He is holy, worthy of praise and trust because I believe He sent His Son to die on the cross for us, that none who accepts the gift of His death on the cross should perish.

I believe that the Bible, all of it, is true. I believe that there are many, many people out there who have read and understand much more of it that I do. And so, I will take the time to read myself, to learn from them, and also to pray that God reveals to me what He wants me to know and see in His Word. I will ask that the Lord provide me the ability to trust Him, even when His Word says something hard to take in or that I do not understand. I am beyond the first hurdle: I have believed in Jesus death and resurrection, in His deity. I have believed in Him as my Savior... I have no trouble believing in supernatural things, and Jesus resurrection was certainly that. I have believed in something pretty unbelievalble:) I think I can keep doing more of the same, as I keep reading and delving more into God's holy Word.

Enjoy God and His Word in 2012 my friends!! Happy New Year!